I lived my life in fear
I lived my life in chains
I lived my life like I would live again
And again, and again, and again
Making the same mistakes
Living second by second
The past living in the present
With no future ahead
Put the past on repeat, let it loop
Until it sinks into my brain
Conditioning my mind, my soul
Until things can never be the same
Except they are the same
The same as they’ve always been
The shadow creeps
The voice echoes
The ground trembles
The background noise of a lifetime
Washes over me like waves
‘You think that there’s something different?
What else is there but here?
There is nothing beyond here
Here is safety
Here is panic
Here is danger
Here is fear’
Says the voice inside my head.
One day I awake from my dream
And I see what is happening around me
The dream fades into reality
A new reality
One that’s hard, cold and stark
This is the life beyond the life
Hidden in the dark
I can make it my own
But I can’t make it alone
Guide me through this
Help me find the bliss
That’s escaped me for so long.
Written by Miss Wren
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